May 2013
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– I hope that you’re just not going to lead me on and then drop me :/
I wish that i would have gotten the attention that she has right now while you were with me. Its not fair at all because i didnt have all of you, she doess. Fucking sucks
Lastnight Jovonne stayed with me for the second time in a row and idk she would get close to me while we were in bed waiting for me to hold her or something but when i did she would wrap her arms with mine and make me hold her...
♥
When she said “Cus we need to go to sleep early”, i got butterflies
When am i goimg to be happy with you again ): when is it my turn. This hurts so bad. I cant stop crying because im thinking about this weekend. What we did, this morning when i held her.. my gut was about to scream be mine! ): idk what to do, im going crazy.. i have never felt this way in my life. Im in love with kassi, thays why it hurts me so much. i just wanna be held again..
They have my baby ):
uggh how do i even deal with this, im breaking down so bad.. just help me )x
Honestly..
Im not ok.
Im not fine with this.
Whenever i feel your lips or hold you so tight in my arms it sets off those smiles, fireworks and that fairy dust n shit. I love it.. i wish i can have all of this back and do it every single day and also being able to call you babe. It slips almost every single time i open my mouth but i dont want her to be like well you cant call me that or dont but ugggghhh. No se
“Get lost with me”
Will you still run away with me to Paris?
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– I just want someone who will hold me tight when i sleep. Play with my hair. Kiss me softly at random moments. Tell me im theirs and only theres. Keep a smile on my face. And to love me for me.
I really did want to sleep with you ):
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– You were the one afraid of me hurting you, when im the one that should have been
“Cus you can bandage the damage, you never really can fix a heart”
– Fix a Heart- Demi Lovato
What exactly is seperation? I got all bleh when she told me that but i couldnt show it because i didnt wanna seem needy :/
So..
idk whats going on..
We’ve been through hell and back.. we were together for two and a half years. our love means it all to me. Its crazy how so much can change..
It hurts when she wants to act this way with me and all i can do is take it because when i say im sorry she says dont say it.. but i am. Im not one to say sorry much, but to her idk.
We both want eachother happy so this is what it leads to.. i...
I love bree shes the bestest
Im still pretty suprised that my mom let me out that late lastnight lol it was nice just laying there looking at the stars.. it was different. It felt good just being able to talk to someone, idk. Thank you
“Aha, fuck.”
– Nothings holding me back, starting to go back to my old fucking days when i just didnt give a muthafuuuuck.
Not good but oh well, shit changes.
Those days were horrible.. i remember when i was heartless as shit when i got with my first girl. She cried and cried and i would just be like ehh fuck...
Taking my breath away with them kisses since September 23, 2010 ♥
MK .
“May 9, 2013
10:37pm”
– Those lips,
Those eyes,
Your breath
That tounge
♥
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– You know what would be cute as fuck? If someone bought me flowers out of nowhere. If someone took me to see the giants game.♥ if someone took me on a cute ass date
“(: Im in a good mood”
– I sometimes wish that i had a girlfriend so that i can take her to like six flags, universals, disneyland and go to dinner, to the movies, kiss, hold hands and all that good stuff just so that i can be the one doing it. I wanna show a girl what i can offer and with a guy its the other way around,...
May 9, 2013
So lasnight, i was playing around with kass and telling her things about her pants and stuff and so when she changed i kept her shorts trying to give a hint but damn i got turned down, i was tryna get her to let me eat her out but she wasnt playing back with me. I got idk about it and just said goodnight. Right now shes sleeping and i just want to kiss her lips and say goodmorning, but i cant. No...
This whole spending the night, is becoming a whole lot easier. Not that there isnt feelings cus come on now there is but i mean for example, i held her but i held her as a friend like idk weird lol i think its only becoming easier because shes pushing me away really, really bad.. It sucks but i mean im giving her what she wants. She doesnt want me so i have to stop throwing myself out there :/ she...
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– When he texts you and your stomach just drops.. not in that cute way.. its in a fucking wrong feeling way. Im writing so much right now and i keep re reading it to make sure i meave nothing out. Ughh 